11.2.11

What you don't know about me is that I am desperately insecure.
I don't trust ... not easily anyway. But when I do it's with everything I have.
I dream of someone who understands me.

What you don't know about me is how high my walls are.
My heavily guarded walls.
You don't know because I have not really shown you.
You don't know how nervous that makes me.
I've broken so many of my own rules.

What you don't know is what I don't tell anyone.
I don't want to feel so isolated.
Even now as I sit here with my friends,
I am alone.
(Damn, listen to me! When did this happen?)
I hate myself for thinking this way.

                                          That's another thing you don't know.
                                                               I am constantly conflicted.
                                                              Even now I question my own words

                                                                    In the end, I am afraid I'll just end up saying it again.
                                                                 People are tragically disappointing.
                                                                That's what you don't know about me.